Breast Cancer

1.She is at long last here
   I know it’s been a while there
   But I, we want this because we care
   There is longing, however no dare
   To say words which will leave all bare
2.Staring into her eyes, memories unfold
   Moments spent that seem beyond
   Damn masculinity ;the tears I cannot withhold
    Feelings running deep in me lie untold
   Though not now but earlier I was bold
3.It came  without any warning
   In the midst of our family bonding
   A savage with time that began devouring
   My happy limitless became draining
   Into a world that her health was failing
4.The epitome of this I have to say
   Was amputation that sent her off bay
   Loss of part of her a price pay
   The Chemo we prayed would make her stay
   Urgently we needed the thing out of our way
5.Toto and I have streamed in and out
   Hospitals often accustomed to its lot
  Our best we have tried to fight
   Against the perils of disease caught
   Against the implications burdened and even the cost
6.Not openly:in the dark in mere silence
   Battled by this day and it’s very essence
   I am terrified, dreaded at its presence
   Awakened my thoughts build on her innocence
  Helpless I am I cannot take vengeance

Yet still I hold on, I have to not for me but for Toto, for her(my happy). Our past lies vivid my happy she will and is she remains despite this cancer divulge. As she enters the operation room, I remind her I love her holding her pretty bald.. All that remains……. Hope

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The 3 idiots-an insight towards life.


I just finished watching the 3 idiots 

It’s an Indian film about three engineers ( fun fact Indian movies always have singing in between so it was almost 3 hours long. I emphasize on it being a must-watch, heads up it has subtitles)

In general the movie is about life, yes I’m sure you know everything there is to life: work hard go to school, get a job, get a mortgage, meet a man or a woman, get kids and die a ripe old age …. well you’re wrong that’s not life in totality, there’s more and this movie just proved it to me.

One of the guys always wanted to be a wildlife photographer but his father forced him into doing engineering; all his 4 years he flunked cause it was not his passion.

The other one came from a poor background and his dad had paralysis, his sister wasn’t married cause she wouldn’t raise the dowry. (another fun fact in India the lady pays the groom’s dowry, sshh!!! my country people shouldn’t hear this or I will find myself married to an Indian πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚) and his mother always complained about everything.

Then there is the main star Rancho, he is smart… like extremely smart. The kind of guys who never study but when the results are out πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ let’s just say at the ground level things are totally different.

I am not trying to write a movie review or anything but to drive the point home. Rancho challenged his 2 friends and they were able to steer their lives into the direction they wanted… they followed their hearts and passions

What is it that you think you live for?

Many people are out there fighting depression either cause of trying to fit in, cause they are afraid of what people will say or it’s already too late for them.

People are walking slaves, they don’t have a purpose so they look to the outside world for gratification and meaning. What happens in the end when you can’t get what you want or you finally get it, then what? 

Others live in fear, fear of failing, fear of being rejected fear of being different and sticking out like a sore thumb. Fear is the reason we have so many idiots leading a country like Kenya

We are all different, of all the 7.7 billion people you are unique in your way; fingerprints, DNA and so many small but intricate things about you that can’t be matched.

It’s not worth it to live to the expectations of others, to live the life of your mother and father or to live in fear. 

Stand up and say


Drop the shit show because if you don’t do it now that you’re young it will be too late to steer your life back.

1. Stop caring about what people will say

2. Stand up to your parents 

3. Stand up to your lover or spouse who is mistreating you or abusing you

4. Stand up to your fears 

5. Stand up to your so-called friends 

6. Stand up to your addictions 7. Stand up to the voice in your head that tells you you’re not good enough.

and in that moment when you are standing there, heart thumping just take a deep breath with your hand to your chest, whisper/ shout 


25 Nov 2019

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