Miracles are everywhere.

This post had been titled, “Lessons are everywhere.” But here is the thing with writers, we are always unsettled, always looking for a better way to phrase words. You are standing at Archives waiting for your girlfriend and a line pops but you can’t even remove your phone to type it. You are asleep and in the middle of the night, God sends you this powerful opening statement that you just have to wake up to write it.

In fact, the word God in that previous sentence was important -because I came up with the title of this piece in church.

So I am seated in church at a teen’s class that I sometimes facilitate. I feel unsettled for two reasons.One, I had not had breakfast. I had figured out that if I sat down to have it, I’d get late. But there is just a way hunger deals with you in church; especially when you are seated behind kids whose mother carried milk and mandazis to silence them during the service.

And two, which is probably the only important thing I’m writing so far is that I have been doubting God and His power. So I am seated there pretending to be listening to the facilitator but deep down I was contemplating on the safest way of quitting church and quitting religion altogether.

For the longest time now, church has been a routine and on this Sunday, I was feeling guilty for making the effort.Guilty that all I do, is go to the class, teach about God, a God that I do not understand, a God that I am angry at, a God who I feel does not care, a God who knows we are not going to prosper but anyway takes us through the whole cycle of moments of intense hope and then moments of intense despair. The routine was growing weary; teach teens class 》》 attend the main service》》vanish-vanish because I do not want to carry my father’s huge bible from church to home…lest hot boys think of me as too churchy. While he is giving it to me, I have to withstand small talk from his friends who are old and have the same old cliché questions.

Old man: Ooh, so this is your daughter?

Inner me: (Smile Susan, smile!)

Old man: Which campus are you in?

Me: University of Nairobi.

Old man: (Eyes growing wide with admiration.) That is wonderful! Graduates from The University(Insert African-British accent and emphasis on article ‘The’) always get great jobs after school.

Inner me: Lol. (Smile Susan, just smile)

Old man: And what course are you studying?

Me: Political Science.

Old man: (turning to my dad who is having a conversation with someone else) Excuse me.Excuse me Mr.Mwai…you didn’t tell me you have an intelligent daughter here.

Old man: (Turning to me) Make sure you work hard………….

Inner me: Okay yeah,Susan it’s time to drift.

Afterwards, I will meet my mum which is a totally different case scenario altogether.

Mum: Ríūrí mūkuruga kí rūngi?(Now, what shall you cook for lunch?)

Then she will answer herself followed by a million instructions. “There is githeri there…just chop onions and tomatoes to make stew and also put some *warus and soup. Don’t cook dry food for us here. Then si you boil some rice and steam cabbage na usishurie* .”

Okay yeah I am done with the kuyu meal.

“And wash the dishes and do not use too much water.”

Susan drifts again…

I drift too many times. So anyway, I was telling you about how I have had my doubts in God. I have questioned life’s meaning. For the last two years, so many things have not worked out in my life. Which is hard to believe and to understand, because I think I have always had a lot of things come easy in my life. I grew up being called smart, intelligent, a leader. I have always topped in my classes or been among the best.

Now, two years down the line, life has been staring at me every single morning and saying… ” You aint shit.” I have worked, put in the effort, trusted in this God…yet again life has stood before me countless times with
that same sentence. I have been at crossroads whether to trust in this same God who says he has good plans for us and this same God, who watches good things happen to good people, innocent people.

Guys do you remember this story I wrote called, “Help Metrine”. You can find it here btw, if you’ve never read it. She got 300 marks in KCPE and got an admission to Lukenya Girls High School. But life again is here telling her… “You aint shit” She cannot afford school fees…and even if she could, her medical condition keeps failing her. So again why would God let the most dedicated, hardworking and
humble girl go through all this?

I do know how it feels to work hard and not get what you want. I know what it is, to trust God and not
have a clue of whether He is telling you to wait or He is just somewhere seated whistling and the turning
to Angel Gabriel to say, “This girl, does she know how many kids are dying of cancer and how many I
have to heal? She is asking for what again?”

Sometimes I think God gets bored of our prayers and turns to Angel Michael in mimicry,

God: Angel Michael, please give me some water. Just water. Michael, I am sorry for the day I stole your
pen. I just needed to write Willy’s name in the book of death. I am really sorry. But Michael, just water. I
promise I will give you my ball to play with tomorrow; after you give me the water. Please Michael, as
you are giving others juice, please give me water, just water…

Angel Michael: God, what are you trying to do?

God: I am showing you how boring human prayers are.

So as I am seated there in class and Kajohnie comes in. Kajohnie is one of the oldest teens in that class. He owns a barber shop at Toez. But you rich folks of Instagram wouldn’t know where Toez is. He seems overly excited which prompts the facilitator of the day to ask him why he is overjoyed. Kajohnie tells us he has a testimony. But I am not as interested to listen. I assume it’s usual stuff. I had a cold, then God healed me. Or ooh, I didn’t have cash last week alafu nikaekelea bet ya 500, game kuisha
I had 1500. You know, usual teen stuff. But Kajohnie tells us that from the barber shop, God has blessed him and now he has opened a Movie shop! Now he has two booming businesses! And well, this
acclaimed political science student has only semester one grades to show for in two years…

I am inclined to believe at this point that God works like drip irrigation. Sometimes He doesn’t flood you with success lest you forget the struggle and become too entitled. He just drips you with small miracles. Today he gives you an idea to partition your kasingle into two and begin your barber shop. Tomorrow by
luck you ekelea a bet and get 2000 bob to buy 2 shaving machines. Then the other day you get one customer, then two, then 5…and by the end of the year you lose count. The next year you move into a
kabedsitter and then you have enough cash to start a movie shop.

Last week, I called a close friend to tell him of some other chap. He has been a conductor for the last six years I’ve known him. He is always so frail and so desperate to get passengers board the matatu which
he has squad for. So if by any chance he sees me going somewhere, he will pester me to death, “Msupa joh! Siunijenge aki, hii ndio gari inaenda, hio ingine utasimama .” So last week, I met him and he wasn’t the guy pestering me to board the matatu or collecting fare; he
was the one driving it. I called my friend to tell him, “Imagine the day this guy was given the car keys and told he will be the one driving that matatu.”

People, miracles are everywhere. They are in opening your eyes every morning to a new day, they are in comfortably taking a piss, then walking to the living room for tea and bread. Miracles are in seeing the rising and setting of the sun. Miracles are in having an opening sentence for my blog at midnight and in having 10 bob to buy credit and publish this piece. Miracles are in being privileged and knowing what
the internet is and being able to read this post. Miracles are in having a girlfriend who can stand all your
crap and in having a boyfriend who prays for you every day.

Miracles are in having a shirt to wear tomorrow, even if it is wash and wear; because there are people who have none. And sometimes they are bigger, like the fact that you will have supper tonight. Imagine how that is a fact to you, but just a prayer to millions of others. Sometimes it’s a scholarship, a new car,
finding true love, fulfilling your passions and sometimes it’s moving into a new blog which you need to subscribe to now!

But whatever the case; Miracles are everwhere.

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Your life is not pegged on a clothe line.

Last Sunday, I was having a chat with one of my high school best friends, Seshi (she is Luhya btw and yes, she loves chicken),is often bubbly, has always been crazy and the type to make your day, doting rather, and has had the same measure craze to wanting to pursue medicine for the four years I have known her.

Anyway fast forward to our conversation,

Having not spoken to her for a long time I wanted us to catch up. Seshi soon told me that she had been admitted to take a bachelor’s degree in environmental health. This is the point you faze down and wonder what to type next in your conversation, (mostly because I have never heard of the course) so I went offline for a couple of minutes just to think of the right question to ask her, should I ask what really environmental science is, should I ask her how it feels. I was totally lost but I prompted a slow reply,” Will you take it?”

Seshi’s reply came in quick, bold and convincing, “Yes, and I am grateful to God.”

The Clothe line.

Last week, KUCCPS released the admission results for KCSE Class of 2015.It came with its own share of joys for those who had been admitted to take “good courses” to “good universities” and a share of painful moments for the “rest”. These souls I hopefully wish I can talk to.

Your life, sweetheart is not pegged on what you think is a hopeless course. I know it is not medicine, it is not law, engineering or computer science. Yes, I know you dreamt of taking astronomy and I know your vision board had it that you would be touching the stars at 25.I know you have been called to that university that you are trying to find on google maps and it isn’t visible. I am aware that your parents are still ranting to you that your auntie’s brother’s daughter’s cousin, * Nderitu of akina Gachau wa mbari ya tata, has been admitted at University of Nairobi to take Medicine, while you are going to do optical nutrition.

I know your best friends in high school in have already been admitted to private universities and are having the time of their lives, (what am I saying here) I know some have been already flown out and you are sleeping there in your small double-decker bed which you share with your sister and the housemaid wondering what next. I know you dreamt and imagine that you would be taking selfies in a few months in the beautiful lawns of the universities that you saw on catalogs in high school. I am sure you had already planned that your Fridays would be spent at Debonairs and in the evening at Imax. Hun, I also know you are angry at God for not giving you that good grade to walk around with your chin up high with (But it’s okay, I am sure God can take it).

Your life.

But here is also what I know, you are special. Four years ago, you blew everyone’s mind by making it to high school, and four years down the line, you will be the best you can be. You will go to that campus holed down in the remote parts of this country and you will work. You won’t work because you are angry but because you know you can do this. I know your parents have no money, I know they feel disappointed but you are still their ray of hope. I know you feel discouraged and so here is my verse to you,

2nd Chronicles 20:12

“We neither know what to do but our eyes are open to you.” I know there is no justifiable reason to what is happening to you and neither do you think it is laced with any inherent specs of good. And I do agree, I really do agree, but I also do know that God’s will for you is for you to walk through these next four years with Him. He wants you to trust him, even when it is hard to trust.

My dear, it is okay to be at pain, but do take it, because pain is a gift, so allow yourself to take this gift of finding out more about yourself; to finding your hidden talents and abilities. Darling, take that microbiology and do surprise us by finding cures to the weariest diseases. Take that hospitality management and build us the best hotels and provide the coziest facilities. Take that tourism management and I promise to employ you as cabinet secretary of tourism one day when am president. Take that mediation and dialogue course and be that source of peace that Africa badly needs.

Be brave and take that first step. Trust yourself and know this, “Your time is limited, don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma, which is the result of living the result of other peoples thinking. Don’t let the noise of other opinions drown your own inner voice. And most important have the courage to follow your heart and intuition, they somehow already know what you truly know what you want to become. Everything else is secondary.”-Steve Jobs.

P.S. I am extremely proud of you Seshi and those who have already taken the bold step to rejoice on their courses.

For those who will be joining campus on parallel, I am proud of you and your parents for taking the bold step to focus and live your passions and destiny. Thank the Lord for this opportunity.

*Nderitu of akina Gacau wa mbari ya tata- Nderitu who belongs to the family of Gacau who is of the clan of our aunt’s place.

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